When we first walked into the rooms of A.A./N.A. we were nervous, anxious and scared. As we looked around we saw all kinds of people. Yet, we quickly saw a lot of similarities. One of those similarities was that mostly everyone was smiling, they welcomed us, they were laughing, and they were enjoying themselves. That is something we hadn’t truly done in a long time. It made us uncomfortable because we didn’t expect happiness. We may have even said to ourselves, “how could these people be happy about being in these rooms?”
We realized, after watching and listening intently to what they had to say, their happiness had come from being in recovery. The people that had time in recovery, sponsor others and had been through the steps only got happy by living these things on a daily basis. Seeing this example made us want what they have. We wanted to be able to laugh and smile and be comfortable. The only way we could do that was by continuing to go to meetings, get a sponsor and work the steps. Freedom and happiness were in reach if we did these things.
I am grateful that I take my inventory. Today I will not take another persons inventory. I pray that I remain curious about my life.